This morning I'm stoked to be co-hosting a new link up series titled "tell your story" with my dear friend Andi from The Hollie Rogue. (be sure to stop by and read her Story too!)
This is such a wonderful opportunity to share any story from your life. The good, bad, ugly or hilarious. It doesn't have to be a new post, it can be one you've written in the past. Nor does it need to be well written or some life changing event. It just has to be part of YOUR story.
for more info and details about the link up: read HERE
Looking back on this year I realized I've opened more about myself than I ever have in my whole life. I shared a little bit with you about how my life was turned upside down at a young age and let you glimpse into my life with having my dad in prison HERE.
Then I also shared about some crazy things God was doing with me as I was struggling with the most difficult times of my life last year HERE.
You know what though? There is a lot I haven't shared. For a lot of reasons really but mainly because God is still writing that story and helping me work through a lot of the kinks.
One thing I know though is that this year has been life changing. It's crazy to think that because of feeling ashamed of my life's circumstances for so long I taught myself to just bury my emotions and to put on a strong face. I taught myself to believe that my hurts and struggles weren't as important as every one else's and so I just made sure to keep my personal things between my God and me.
In the end that hurt me so, so much. Not letting myself even feel worthy of excepting God's truths for myself wrecked me.
I loved the Lord and had a strong faith yet, I didn't feel like I was important enough for His promises. Like they weren't meant for me.
If YOU were hurting, you better believe I'd stop and pray for you or add you to my prayer list.
If YOU were struggling with something, I would share with you scripture and bring you a coffee to boost your spirits.
You see, I have always been a people pleaser and so making sure everyone else was okay and loved on sort of became my thang.
Something happened after having kids. They opened up parts of my heart that I had kept locked for so long and so once opened I just became this overflowing ball of emotion.
Through last years bible study going through the Psalms and reading through She Reads Truth devotionals with this amazing community online I have grown so much and God has literally done a work on me.
He has shown me that I am His own. That he loves me as His daughter and that I am worthy of not only His Love but of His truths and promises.
Through all of this re-framing of my heart and mind this year I can now openly share bits of my heart with people and not feel ashamed about how I feel. I can ask for prayer when I need it and most importantly can truly feel the warmth of God's loving arms holding me on the days I need it most.