I would've asked if you read this post and talked about how God has been pressing more and more on prioritizing my life for Him and how I should be seeking His kingdom first for everything.
I would tell you that I have been going back and forth about participating in all the fall and holiday boutiques I have been asked to sign up for and how I was so stressed about it all up until a week ago.
I would be honest and tell you that I had to put my wants aside and truly seek God's will for my life.
I would let you know that if I was being completely honest I'm a little sad that I won't be participating in any of the boutiques this year but also how excited I was by the rush of relief that poured over me once I made that decision.
via pinterestI would ask if you remembered the boutique I mentioned here, called The Sashes Market and how stoked I was to be a vendor at it because it was part of The Influence Conference I'm attending in October. I would tell you that though I was excited about it, I totally stalled on paying the booth fee because something wasn't sitting right in my soul.
That something was conviction but I was trying to pass off as guilt. You see guilt is of the enemy and is confusing whereas conviction is from the Lord and should motivate us in doing good and strive to make better decisions. By passing it off as guilt I was allowing myself to overlook it and fog my judgement.
I would tell you that after sitting through yet another amazing Women's Study at my church that one of the speaker's words rang true to my heart about putting God First. Truly making Him priority and how secondly I need to be loving my family as He commands and how that would make decisions that come up in my life much simpler because those things that aren't truly bringing Glory to God are meaningless and are basically a waste of time.
I would tell you that it hurt my pride a bit because I feel like I'm constantly seeking God's will but realized as much as I was seeking His will I was also trying to fit my will in there too.
Then I would go back to talking about The Sashes Market and let you know that I eventually swallowed my pride and wrote the gals in charge an email stating that I would not be able to be part of it this year, and was honest with them about never actually praying about it and that I just jumped in assuming it was something I was supposed to take part in because let's be honest it is a Faith conference, where God is the focus, so of course this was something I was supposed to be part of, right??!! RIGHT!? Instead of praying about it and seeking what God wanted and not what I wanted I had to write an embarrassing email.
Then I would tell you that the women were so understanding and even more so encouraged me in my decision and helped confirm that was what I was supposed to do.
I would tell you that I cried about it. Yeah, I know, LAME, but I was sad. I wanted to be part of the Conference in a bigger way and being a vendor and not just another blogger attending seemed to be the perfect fit, or so I thought.
I'm not gonna lie. The next day I received a slew of orders. I thought, wow I wouldn't have been able to embroider these because I was going to start prepping for the boutique and I felt that was God saying,
"don't worry dear daughter, I got you. You can be creative and have this outlet and use these talents I blessed you with to make pretty things that are created to encourage others, but it can't be on a larger boutique scale right now because I have other priorities for you to take care of. You have these babies I need you to train up and a husband that needs your prayers, time and attention right now. Don't worry about being noticed and standing out in the crowd because of what you make, focus more on your heart and what you can do to make much of me and it will be so much better than any fame or fortune you can receive from those things"
Then I would take a sip of my coffee wipe away my tears and tell you that God is so, so good. And I love that HE loves us so, even when we make decisions that weren't based on His word or were based off of our own wants, He still chooses to bless us and I just can't seem to wrap my head around that.
I would ask you if you could make sense of that either, and we'd both laugh at how undeserving we are of HIS great love and start snacking on the homemade scones I prepared.
Then before I ask you about what was going on in your life I would share something else I learned.
About how all these wonderful opportunities have come up for me recently. Boutiques, Sole Hope Ambassador, ministry at church, different blog opportunities, and the list goes on... that through all these new opportunities I realized even though these things are all good things I want to take part in, it doesn't mean they are things God wants for me.
I'm learning that just because good things come up and are in effort to serve the Lord, they may not be what He wants me to be doing at this particular time. Because we are told to do serve with ALL of our heart. But I can't possibly do that when I'm filling my heart with all these distractions. How can I do all of these things well when I'm spread so thin? I'm learning that when I truly seek him and I'm receiving His blessings because of it, then these things that are important to me like being part of boutiques, blogging, ministry, Sole Hope... because all these things make me feel good, like I have something more to offer as a person that He revealed HE already sees me as someone who has more to offer and I don't need to try and prove that. He can fill me up and replace that needing to feel wanted with His love for me and the knowledge that He wants me. He desires me. He seeks after me and that is so refreshing. Putting life into a clearer perspective and making the decision to take a step back was so much easier to do.
So now how about you? What changes have you needed to make in your life?
And on a much lighter note I took Alissa's challenge to try and share about ourselves in 30 seconds via VLOG so enjoy!
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Happy Friday Friends! Hope you have a very blessed weekend.
Linking up with this pretty lady for our coffee date!